Melody of Lyrics: Epik High - Fan

Friday, December 07, 2012


Time for another Epik High post for the Melody of Lyrics series. I just can't help it because I truly love pretty much all the song lyrics from Epik High. Today I chose "Fan", which was released in 2007 on their "Remapping The Human Soul" album. It is one of my favourite songs from them and I also love the creepy music video. 



English translation of the lyrics:

Oh!
i know i can't have you 
(But you're always in my head)
Even though i can't touch you
(It's just wishful thinking)
I can't say it,
(watching from far away)
You know I do
(I love you)
even though you don't know who i am


Oh baby don't you know,
You don't know my name
I couldn't sleep, because I was thinking of you

Oh so beautiful,
Grasping the photo I took of you in my hand.
My love for you is buried under the world's love, 
For you, you're not listening i will never be allowed to.
In the next life we would live separate lives.
I want you so much I can't go back,
Thoughts of kissing you tonight,
I hold my pillow tighter

Today would be the first time we met.
You say that to everybody you meet.
I always talk to you with your back facing me.
Even the familiar 'hi' seems so awkward today..
If we blocked everybody's ears,
I'm hoping you would listen to only
What i had to say;
Seeing you walk away makes me go into a trance state, shake me from it.
From far away you have become a dot.
Where can i see you? (tell me)


Oh!
i know i can't have you 
(But you're always in my head)
Even though i can't touch you
(It's just wishful thinking)
I can't say it,
(watching from far away)
You know I do
(I love you)
even though you don't know who i am
(But you're always in my head)
Even though i can't touch you
(It's just wishful thinking)
I can't say it,
(watching from far away)
You know I do
(I love you)
even though you don't know who i am


Why aren't you smiling today
I hope nothing's wrong
I can't face to look at your worried face
I wish I could take your pain away. 
But I can't.
And that saddens me.
Just today, - if i ask you how you are doing..
Would you answer me? - hug me?
I can't reach you, touch you, or hold you
I'm going to meet you in my dreams again tonight

Even in my dreams, people disapprove
They say I'm crazy - if i erase the world
That makes you mine.
Why would I lose you to anybody else
No, I can never understand that. I'll make it so that you'll only look at me
I'll give you everything when we kiss,
I'll give you everything so that you can never leave me. I'll keep you in my cold heart

You are My star,
I'm your no.1 fan
Baby please take my hand

Oh!
i know i can't have you 
(But you're always in my head)
Even though i can't touch you
(It's just wishful thinking)
I can't say it,
(watching from far away)
You know I do
(I love you)
even though you don't know who i am
(But you're always in my head)
Even though i can't touch you
(It's just wishful thinking)
I can't say it,
(watching from far away)
You know I do
(I love you)
Even though you don't know who i am

Oh!
i know i can't have you 
(But you're always in my head)
Even though i can't touch you
(It's just wishful thinking)
I can't say it,
(watching from far away)
You know I do
(I love you)
Even though you don't know who i am
(But you're always in my head)
Even though i can't touch you
(It's just wishful thinking)
I can't say it,
(watching from far away)
You know I do
(I love you)


Boys and girls who have fallen
in psychotic love say oh, oh oh!
Boys and girls who have fallen
in idiotic love say oh, oh, oh!
Boys and girls who have fallen
in hopeless love say oh, oh , oh!
Boys and girls who have fallen
in love like mine say oh, oh, oh!

Even if you don't know who I am


(Translation from JpopAsia, all credit goes to the translator. Click on the link for hangul and romanization.)



Why I like these lyrics:

At first it seems like your usual love song, but once you read/listen to the lyrics more carefully the song isn't about love, but about obsession. Like the title says, it's about a fan who's lost their sense of reality and their admiration for their idol is no longer healthy. I've always liked that Epik High writes songs about unconventional things, and "Fan" is a great example how a "love song" can actually be very creepy. 

I think Tablo and Mithra have done a great job at describing the inner turmoil of an insane fan. And during the song, the obsession of the fan seems to improve for the worse. At first the fan acknowledges that the idol doesn't know who she/he is and accepts this: "You're not even listening, you wouldn't even know if I died. Even in your next life you will live without knowing who I am". But then as the song progresses, the fan no longer does want to share his/her idol with anyone else: "You are mine, so why do I keep losing you to all those undeserving people? No, there is no way. I'm going to make you see only me from now on". The line at the end of the last verse "I will trap you inside my cold, dark chest so you can't escape from me" being especially disturbing. 
I'm sure we've all read about how extreme some K-pop fans are in reality. So I can't help but love the fact that Epik High has adressed this issue without attacking anyone, but, in fact, doing it from the fan's viwepoint.

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4 comments

  1. *siiigh* Love these guys. I think the first time I heard this song I was immediately in awe over them. :) Thanks for the lyrics though. I hadn't gotten around to looking them up, though I knew the general sentiment. This remains my all-time favorite of their songs.

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    1. I love them too. With Epik High I always look up the lyrics because I know that they have a strong message within them. And "Fan" is definitely one of my favourite songs from them.

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    2. Not that I'm a big VIP or anything *looks around innocently* But I was also rather enamored of the song when they did the joint Epik High/Bigbang version of Fan. *runs to youtube to watch it once more*

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    3. Oh yeah, they did collaborate on a live stage once, I remember that. Not that I'm a big VIP or anything, I just occasionally watch every single Big Bang video available on Youtube, y'know, out of boredom...err..

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